A World Of Possibility

Today, I am taking a break from posting the video and bringing it back for a moment to just do what I love to do. Write.

Its really ironic when I look back at a lot of the things I have accomplished in my life, the things I have failed at, the things that I dabbled in and the things that I still inspire to do. I have a couple of completed books written, but being my own skeptic, I have not taken the plunge and put forth the effort, nor the monetary supplementation to do so. Being an addict in recovery has helped me to understand that my story, really isn’t all that different than anyone else’s…..I have just had a lot of cool shit that has happened in my life, and that is what most of the books are written about.

The content of what I write typically has some big build up of a story and in the end, there is a success or a lesson as a result of my haberdashery. Got drunk, saved a bird, got shitfaced, met cool people, went to a concert and got drunk, fell down the stairs in front of a lot of people. But, my recovery has also taught me to be humble, and there are a lot of lessons that have come from my experiences.

My step mom has told me that my dad regularly said “Erick got himself into some shit, but he always comes out smelling like roses.” While I like to think that is true, there has always been some sort of internal baggage that has gotten screwed up in one way or another along the way. I am not a saint, and anyone that knows me personally will vouge for that statement with conviction. The end result however, is my intention is always positive whenever I do something. I have worked for myself, and always had the customer in mind. My recovery blog is always the other side minded when it comes to the end of the day. Working for someone else, also helps me to realize that while I am in a position, regardless of what it is, no matter how much I hate doing something, it makes the company money….and in the end I benefit because I have gotten a paycheck as a result.

I have come to a point in my life, where I realize that what I am going to school for is never going to net me the return on my investment that I want as a result. While I am not in it for the money and I have ALWAYS figured out a way to make ends meet, I have also observed my feeling and internal thoughts on payday. How fucking hard I worked for such a measly paycheck is bullshit. The truth is, every job I have worked, in every capacity, for asshole bosses, and for amazing partners, I have always taken away experience from it. From being self employed with my buddy, to working on fire scenes, as a medical examiner, for “Big Box Retail” to the warehouse I currently work in, I have learned a lot of things and even more point of views.

I may not always love my job, but I like what I do. I may not like 100% of everything that happens everyday, but I still get paid. Seeing a lot of my friends and family struggling with this Covid-19 unemployment bullshit has me wondering where they would be in their career if it had not happened. I wonder how many will be called back to their jobs, with new terms and conditions of their work life. Ultimately, I am humbled that I remained employed full time for the duration.

When I say the world of possibilities, I hope you all understand that there is an abundance of moments in life that we often see pass us by. Whether it be because we are scared of the unknown, or because we have been in this situation before and the outcome was dire, we all just need to understand one thing. If you don’t have the balls to jump in feet first, someone else will, and you will lose your opportunity before it even presents itself.

Stay Strong

Stay Focused

Stay Sober

~GH