Don’t forget to act right?

Heeeeeere we are with another go at the blogging thing. Been a few minutes since the last one. I like how they added some fun stuff to the editing block too. Kinda nice seeing something that isn’t black and white on a screen for a change. SO that being said…how have things been?

I have been working hard on content that will intrigue some people, confuse others…..and some will just get downright pissed off. That’s okay too, its why I do this-to make people think about things. And I think a lot of times that I don’t follow my own advice as I am too busy asserting others to make changes in their life, that I don’t always pay close attention to mine. So….fucking act right!

It has been an inspirational forklift ride inside my head. The problem is, sometimes life is too heavy to put down, and it sits on your shoulders……or may even break your back. The day of my surgery, I was a hot mess. I had already spent 6 weeks relying on everyone else to help me out in slightly uncomfortable ways. People that wouldn’t normally see things or do things, stepped up to help me. I have never felt so helpless in my life.

I have a lot of emotion lately. For some that do not know, my dad passed away a couple of years ago. This year, I have had back surgery, a child born, my mother has passed away, spent 6 months off work, depleted my emergency fund….but I have had amazing support along the way. Every aspect of my circle reached out to help. Those that I had wished to reach out, didn’t and those whom I didn’t expect to did. Kind of a wild ride when I look back. Those that were there consistently, know that I appreciate their help.

I have taken it upon myself to honestly suck up everything and just tough it out. We all know that even the cornerstone crumbles with time. Between the death of my parents, the fucked up side effects that come with surgery, the blood clots in my lungs making the doctors even more concerned and watching my mom pass suddenly-was a wtf moment that I hope I never have to relive again. Both my parents are dead now, so that won’t really be an issue per se.

I always speak about talk it out, or get to the root cause. I am also one that highly struggles with that. Sometimes I don’t take the deep breath, or close my eyes and live in the moment…sometimes I just struggle through and flop like a fish. We all do, and that is okay. As long as we get back up and start working towards our goal again and not dwell on the negative for a long duration of time.

I am sick, I have issues with my body and with my brain. I am an addict in recovery, and even lately I forgot about that. No-not because I relapse, but because I have become so accustomed to the day to day life, that sometimes I forget that I am in recovery. It is a normal part of my life. Those who are struggling-need an outlet. And yes we all do feel better once our time and attention deteriorate. But that is why I am speaking candidly here. I suppose I can get more of my verbal vomit out via broadcast….so lets plan on that tonight. An extra special Back to School broadcast….for all the parents that had to immediately stop day drinking once school resumed for our lil ones.

Let’s get back to one….tonight. I could use it….could you?

Stay Strong

Stay Focused

Stay Sober